PSYCHIC PUKING

 Many people do this regularly without even understanding. Some call it stress release. Imagine a person who does not talk any thing back in the office or to his boss. He/she simply stuffs it inside. He looks calm and peaceful externally. Internally or psychically if one looks at these type of people they will be boiling and filled with fumes of anger like that of a pressure cooker. One day for small things of no importance, it will burst out as eruptions of anger and start blaming wife, children and parents. Also for every thing they will burst. Some of them become sick or periodically vent their feeling with friends.

  How to deal with it

• First time it out and check how long it will take for psychic puking to happen. For some it can last up to a week. And for some it can last for 3 days. Maximum in a city environment it will last a week.

• Secondly do not pretend to be holy or calm cat etc. this is one of the attitudes which can create immense pain for the close people in your life.

• Thirdly do some nadi sodhana every day.

• Chant om shanthi shanthi shanthi 1008 times.

• Try to look at a person from soul level and forgive every day.

• if you have some thing to say to the people, then do it so.

• Stop being revengeful. I know a friend of mine who use to be revengeful with his wife. He would take all the anger and frustrations on his wife and children. Any thing his wife says he will do opposite. He publicly feels great on that.

• Some people do activism to clear the anger and built in frustration.

OH! LORD, ANSWER MY PRAYER

Come in to my life oh lord Narayan

You have come as whispers and gentle wind

I have missed you many million times.

They say u are every were

I do not see you.

Do not play games oh lord

Come in to my life

With a roar of lion ,

Like a tsumani of love.

Wash me of this ignorance

Of not seeing you every were

Savior of life

Come and come yet again.

Enough of missing you

I know I do not deserve you

Sinned a million times

Because of sin only

I know your value.

Because I am poor in spirit

Come in to my life to nourish me!

WAYS OF IMPROVING THE SADHANA

many people do the sadhana and wanted to see the results fast. The following methods if adopted will give tremendous growth in their sadhana

• The deity and the sadhana should be initiated by a guru who has lineage of siddha purshua and the siddha being alive.

• if done in the sthala of the devata. Like ganesa sadhana in ganesa temple.

• If done in the famous place like for example murga sadhana in palani.

• With synchronized time, for example with nakshatra and the tithi.

• Done in the direction liked by deity like south if it is for murga.

• With the pancha karma like abshikeam, chanting, homam, bhojana etc for the deity.

• The color of the cloth, the asana the initial middle and final rituals done in systematic manner.

The amount like one lakh or two lakh will produce fantactsic results.

MODEL IN SPIRITUALITY

There are several models in spirituality. One needs to choose the model that suits his temperament and ability.

The milarepa model or preacher model- milarepa means one meditates and forgets about the world, doing some thing for world etc.

Preacher model- means you teach, preach write books conduct lectures etc.

Then the Arjuna model or the prahalad model- the Arjuna model is go out pick the battles and fight for the evolution of the world.

In the prahalad model you allow god to do the work for you.

Money touching model vs. non touching of money – this was the model followed by ramakrishna paramahamsa. This means u allow god take care of you but using any material possession. in the second model u touch money to spread dharma.

Bramacharya model or the grhista model – means doing sadhana completely away from family duty or doing sadhana along with the family duties

Traditional vs. rebellious – the new age model is based on rebelling against traditional ideas. Mix of both traditional and new age like doing homam but talking of Vedanta.

THE GOD-omni potent, omni loving, omni presence

 To The Holy Feet Of Kitrie Futnani.
Conversation with my great teacher.

I met him one night. We had discussion that can be helpful for every one.

God has many facets. They are Omni presence, omni potent, omni knowing or omniscient, omni love and many more. No wonder lord shiva is called as vama deva , sadojata, tata pursha, essena etc.
Any enlightened master will express these facets. For example ramana maharishi has omnipresence. Who ever went to him experienced god or divine.
For example sathya sai baba expresses the omni potent by showing so many miracles. So was great guru padma sambhava

omni knowing – the great scientist , photosphere, teacher shows their ability in a limited way. Great god knows every thing. Just like hakim sanai says ‘ he knows movement of the ant in darkness. Such is unlimited of the knowingness of the god.

Omni love- god is ever loving. He is in love with himself. The tamil siddhas say anbe shivam because of this.

Women express the omni love and omni presence. She expresses this love through her touch, feel, look, talk and her very presence carries this love. Women are a healer or healer using love. Man is a warrior and the divine express the omni potent and omni knowing through man. That is the reason why many man are interested in power and knowledge.

Some one should come far very far to be in sadhana. Many people dip their leg in sadhana and go back because it is frightening. It requires guts to come very far. One should be willing to give up every thing for god like Ramakrishna paramahams was willing to die for his sadhana. Such was the level of intensity and commitment and thirst which is rare but then it is not impossible.

Omni knowing- one can know in different ways. Society, parents, any information can help you in knowing to some extent. There is also help from spirit world to know. For example the great beings of light and world of spirit can be helpful to you. Beyond this is level of merging one own mind with the mind of god to know everything. It is called a para vaka siddhies. It is like down load from internet. The connection is god word.

If some one ask the question one needs to tune in and then any answer which is relevant and useful can be down loaded. Most of the great masters had this facility.

WHAT A GURU DOES?

Many people want a guru and seek for it. Many spiritual giants who have reached great heights talk about the guru’s grace. The scriptures emphasize the need of guru .
What does the guru do-?
* First to meet a guru one needs a great blessing of 1000 life time, divines grace and compassion of the teacher itself. Actually the guru will awaken       the kundalini shakhi which will give spiritual thirst and inclination. Without this awakening one will be going in circles.
* Next the guru clarifies the concepts of spirituality. When you listen to a living guru you will see the insight of common things and this insight will       grow tremendously.
* guru’s insights and techniques on meditation will be amazing and this will produce results very fast. His blessing and good wishes is enough for       techniques to open up. When any person listen once to their words (which will have tremendous shakthi)  one will understand anything spontaneously and       apply it with out obstructions.
* When you speak his words or quote his words people’s heart and energy will get purified that they feel inspired to meet him. The guru’s life will       itself be an example and inspiring. Dedication and commitment will be awe some. One will special and meaningful.  When he touches you with love it is       very deep.
* He will keep the flame of spirituality alive when worldly churning happens. Priorities and values of life will become clear. The temptation of worldly       life and tempest of samsara will stop. Worldly success will become tasteless and insipid and in his presence you will feel life has become meaningful.
* Where ever you run, his memory will haunt you. When you remember his name and thank the guru, one will see the practice taking off. He will guard your       practice invisibly. When you do what he says you will see the results which will take eons by person’s own effort and will.
* Experiences will multiply and faith will be restored and practice will take off. One will be tested of course but then it worth it.
* Effort produces tiredness but a guru’s words awaken so fast that you will see the energy shift effortlessly.
* He is the light in darkness, a flash of lighting in a dark forest and a savior of the soul.

May All Beings Who Read This Find The Real Guru And

May The Practice Takes Off And

May Every Being See The Results.

I Bow Down To Holy Feet Of My Teacher Sensei Kirties Futanani Who Acts Like Great Maha Siddha Naropa.

WORDS OF MY TEACHER

 I met him night and the words he spoke in the satsanga. I am sharing it

 Aim of life – is god or define it another way. It is love. Seek love, you will find god and seek god, you will find love. Many people due to delusion and limitation of the karma think that money is equivalent to power, fame etc. if they meditate deeply they will come to understand that they are seeking love, in another words god. One is seeks god in different ways. Some seek god through family, some through structure and some through work etc.

 

Gratitude or thankfulness is way of showing the love. If you are thanking god, you will think of praying. My prayers are showing gratitude to god. Musharaff needs love and even bin laden needs love. That is why women are not ambitious. Ultimate fulfillment is love or prayer or god. This is a whole trinity telling on single aspect.

 

Women – women is shakthi. Shakthi means energy. Women emits shakthi by their look, touch, talk etc. women empowers. When she listens she energizes your desire. If any man talks negatively in front of her she will energize it, if some one asks any thing she will energize it, like wish fulfilling tree. That is why one need treat women with respect. Some men get angry more the women try to pacify more they will get upset. This is because they give energy which energizes the anger. Women if they keep quite and let go when men are angry, it will be easier for man to recover. Even young girl have this shakthi.

 

Every one has divine aspect. Women have love aspect, man the intelligence aspect. Similarly every one has power or shakthi.  Every one has some quality of love like children with their innocence, women by the love. Look all these things as the different aspect of love.

MEDITATION ON LOVING KINDNESS

Loving unconditionally is one of the toughest lessons in spirituality. One can learn to drive car, win over competitors but to love mankind is the most challenging and the most difficult one.

Now let us see the challenges in loving kindness

To love a person who is positive towards us is very easy. But to love a person who is negative is very difficult.

One needs to undergo the following tests to sublimate their ego and surrender to god’s will. This will happen with your close family members mostly.

*  They will not respect your opinion.
*  They will blame you.
*  They will irritate you.
*  They will throw accusation on you.
*  They will not behave according to your expectations.
*  The more you try to correct them the more they will resist you.
*  The more you give up the more you will be appreciated.
*  You will not be respected, taken for granted and will be attacked mercilessly.
*  You will have to please them and they will not please you.
*  You have to learn to express truth positively and sweetly.
*  Learn to apologize when you have been harsh even if you are right.
*  One also needs to recover quickly from bad moods.
*  Say what you want to say with out blaming.
*  First check the following indication to find out whether you are having a test-
*  Check your navel, if you feel uneasiness then you have test coming in for loving kindness.
*  Check your breathing and if it is fast then also u have the test coming.
*  Check your chest and if you feel heavy then also you have the test coming.
*  Check your swara.
*  if you are harsh in words or attack people come out of it quickly.

Also chant these verses in the morning daily

GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING THIS DAY.
MAY I PRACTICE LOVING KINDNESS.
DO NOT PUT ME TO EXTREME TEST.
EVEN IF U PUT ME GIVE ME THE WISDOM
TO APPLY WHAT I KNOW.
APPLY PERSISTENTLY TILL I SEE THE RESULTS.

TODAY IS A GOOD DAY.
MY FAMILY CAN AGREE WITH ME AND I FEEL NICE.
WHEN THEY DISAGREE WITH MY OPINION
MAY I WEAR THE OPINION LIKE DRESS
AND BE FLEXIBLE TO TAKE IT OFF.
IF I DO NOT RECOVER THEN
I BREATH IN DEEPLY
ASK MYSELF WHAT I NEED TO LET GO
IF I STILL FEEL UNEASY
SEE  THEM OF DIVINE BEINGS
THINK OF THEM AS INTELLIGENT.
LOOK AT THEIR ACHIEVEMENTS.

WHEN EVER FAMILY MEMBERS PRAISE ME
I SEE IT AS A IMPERMANENCE
AS WORDS WRITTEN IN AIR
FOR WHEN I AM PRAISED I WILL ALSO BE PUT DOWN
SO WHEN I AM PUT DOWN
I ASK MYSELF
IS IT TRUE?
DOES THE OTHER PERSON IS ANGRY?
HOW CAN I MAKE HIM HAPPY?
HOW CAN I TAKE HIM AS MY TEACHER TO CRUSH MY EGO?
MAY I BOW IN RESPECT FOR EXAGGERATING MY FAULTS.
MAY I SEE THEM AS UN PAID GURU

WHEN EVER I GET WHAT I WANT
MAY I BE THANKFUL TO FAMILY MEMBERS.
MAY I DONOT GET WHAT I WANT

I LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE
I LOOK AT HOW TO BRING HAPPINESS.
I LOOK AT HOW TO MAKE EVERY ONE HAPPY?
MAY I NOT FOCUS ON WHAT I DO NOT HAVE?

WHEN MY KIDS LISTEN TO ME
MAY I NOT FEEL PROUD
FOR ONE DAY THEY WILL NOT LISTEN TO ME

WHEN THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO ME
MAY I BLESS THEM FOR RIGHT CONDUCT
MAY I PRAY THAT THEY DO NOT HURT THEMSELF.
MAY I SHARE MY CONCERN WITH OUT BEING ABUSIVE,
MAY I NOT USE MY ROLE TO DOMINATE OR DICTATE.
MAY I BE KIND IN WORDS
MAY I TELL WHAT I WANT TO SAY CLEARLY AND TACTFULLY?

WHEN OBJECTS BREAK IN MY HOUSE

MAY I REMEMBER THAT EVERY THING HAS TO GO
EVERY THING IS IMPERMANENT
NOTHING IS FOR EVER
MAY I REMEMBER TO BE THANKFUL TILL I HAD USED IT.

MAY I BRING PEACE WITH MY WORDS
MAY I BRING HAPPINESS.
MAY I LEARN TO SERVE INSTEAD OF BEING SERVED.
MAY I LEARN TO BE PATIENT AND KIND.
MAY I REMEMBER THAT LIFE IS IMPERMANENT
MAY I LIVE THIS VERY MOMENT

What Is A Sin

DOES SIN EXIST

 Many people in the modern new age movement of the spirituality do not feel that sin exists. I also use to feel that way too. As I started doing meditation regularly, I began to see the impact of the action and the impression it leaves on the mind.

Watch the mind when it is restless, heavy or after a fight or abusive action. One will feel penerating the mind deeper will be a problem. Secondly a sense of restlessness and agitation will prevail. Guilt will surface which when acknowledged leads to realization by the way of regret, repentance and wanting to change oneself. Of course I used to personally believe that guilt is useless. But actually it promotes positive action and god has kept it as sign post for us to grow in love.

The so called malice of the western world which includes restless and agitation is due to the non acceptance of this principle. The Indians call it objectively as karma; unskillful action by Buddhist the Christians calls it as sin.

One of the people known to me said “till I say sorry to person whom I have hurt there is agitation in my mind”. if one does skillful whole some action there is happiness. Unskillful action leads to regret and pain.

When people try to suppress their unskillful action normally their sleep gets disturbed, secondly one can not be peaceful even every thing outside is alright. They also make small matters in to big issues. This heaviness in energy and the pollution of the aura leads to sin. It does exist.

My wife being a Christian used to go confess with the father and I have dropped a couple of time in church after the confession. She used to feel light and also her face brightens up.

Confession of ones own mistakes , asking for pardon from divine and seeking help to avoid these mistakes and walk in path of righteousness is the wonderful method the Christian church does it. When one confesses to the father who is a spiritual person, one feels not only unburderened but is also protected by divine.
I was very sucessful, famous and financially sound when I was in also in jaya television. Actually I used to feel restless, lack of sleep and a sense of gnawing pain.
I use to misuse my gift of speech by begin hurtful in my words which used to create lot of mental pain for others. Many people tolerated me because I was basically a good natured person. For the moment I have asked pardon and asked god to guide me. Now I feel there is an enormous change in my energy. I became lean and yet my weight is the same. I begin to understand that I was losing this dross energy which is why I looked leaner. My life became peaceful and people noticed visible differences in mw. What my intelligence and knowledge could not bring, humility power of prayer and seeking god help brought peace and harmony in my life.

When you do an error which has caused immense pain in someone’s life, ask for forgiveness immediately. You will be relived of much down falls. chant 108 – 1008 times as mark of atonement, give up some thing you like for a day or two and learn to donate money or objects. You will see enormous difference in the way you live your life. It will become meaningful and joyful. Moment of uncertainty, confusion etc will be there but then even this will lead to greater harmony.

Human beings are imperfect but with gods grace one can evolve in love. We seek god in the moment of pain and problem. But we need to understand that we can solve our problems with the power of prayer. Kabir beautifully sums it up that you plus god is success. You minus god is failure. My teacher used to quote bible often that seek the kingdom of heaven all else shall be added on to thee.

CURSES IN LIFE

There are few laws in life. When these laws are broken people will have misery and suffering. I call it as curse. This curse operates every time and many people are partially aware of it. Following are some which the author has observed.

* Teacher’s curse- what you preach one can not follow. It will be more difficult and each teacher will have dark areas unless they surrender to divine.

* Student’s curse- if you do not thank respect and pay for the knowledge you cannot use the knowledge fully in right time. This is similar to what Karna       in Mahabharata experienced.

* Curse of praise – when some one praises you, simply offer it to divine grace and tell it verbally too. When you do not do this, you will have immense       sarcasms and opposition from people sooner or later.

* Curse of action- when you act for your sake and for your success, one is bound to have problems. If you offer it to god and think you are instrument of       god then the flow of work is easy.

* Curse of boasting – with what you boast you will be defeated. One person who used to boast on good health lost is health due to paralysis. He used to       tell every one about his good health without making offend.

* Curse of hurting – when you hurt some one on purpose, you will have tremendous pain with out you knowing or understanding.

* Curse of temple – when you finish visiting temple or pooja thank the deity. Other wise going to temple will be difficult. This is what experienced live       close to temple but cannot go to the temple regularly.

* Curse of finding fault with others- when you find fault with others, your own fault will be exaggerated and you cannot control your addictions or             limitation.

* Curse of success- when ever you succeed your own limitation will become obvious. There fore when you succeed always be careful as your limitations will       get highlighted. When you are praised for success and intelligence there will be heckler who will send to put you down.

MASTERING PRAYER WITH OUT CEASING

Once I met a house wife who told me that could not do meditation. I remembered the words of my teacher due to god’s grace. “Master prayer in action. Even at the time of death this will be useful”.

First of all make the path, deity and guru clear. Then one can use the techniques. The key point is, at the beginning, middle and end of all actions remember the mantra and consecrate all the actions to the deity. Start with the mantra and chant as you work with end that activity with the mantra. For example

• before bath ,after the bath, and as you bath,

• Before defecation after and middle of it.

• Before you sit for your work, as your work and at the end of the work.

• before and the end of conversation and middle of pauses.

• Before one get up or after or in the middle

• Before one goes to sleep or after when one awakes.

• Before u eat after and in the middle as chew u very morsel.

• Before wearing shirt or keeping objects.

 If this order is followed then it will be easy. My wife enquired Swami shantananda as to why he cracks up so many jokes. For that he replied “I crack jokes because when people laugh I remember the divine in the gaps” what a level of awareness!

 

While traveling, do not allow your mind in idle chatter. Normally the mind gets bored and wants to talks on some thing.  My teacher calls it as inner dhun. He said every one has inner sound but then it is confused, automatic and not clear.  Keep focused on mantra. Keep this dhun in god. You can also bless every one who has any kind of suffering in the road like the beggars, the invalids, the elderly, the children, the healthy for better health and the egoistic for transformation.

If I go in for long distant travel, I keep minimum mantra chanting. Let us say if the journey is 8 hours then at least chanting of 50 malas of short mantra can be done. Personally I will chant 10 malas, if it is a long mantra. When bus stops or in between some conversation arises I deal with it in a positive manner. I will also do it with minimum sound which is called as upamasu. Avoid a bus which has video and audio facilities.

  Before starting the conversation in telephone or with people chant your prayer. – Your silence will improve, sensitivity will be sharp, you will be less prone to fights and detachments will happen automatically. You will be kind in words and this will happen automatically. Awareness alertness and witnessing will happen. Repetitions may not be needed.

 When you have problem, first pray and try to act. Then you will have sense of peace, objectivity and clarity to solve or accept any problems. Normally people do it other way round. They act then they get frustrated when things do not happen. Only then people turn towards god for the problem to get solved.

 

Start with 3 times then slowly increase the frequency to 10 – 12 chants. One can also do with only bija akshara. Om aum etc.

 

When you realize that every moment is precious and death can happen any moment, using every action, words and meeting of people as the way to remember god becomes easy.  maya means not remembering divine gnana means remembering name of god which is the very essence of all religion.

STEPS IN ANY MEDITATIONS

Meditation Can Be Classified As Follows

Meditation Stamina-

• Doing It 5 Times a Day or 20 Hours.

• Second Level Is 4 Times A Day Or 16 Hours.

• Third Level Is 3 Times A Day Or 12 Hours.

• Fourth Level Is 2 Times A Day Or 8 Hours.

• Fifth Level Is Once A Day Or 4 Hours.

Meditation Session Is

• 45 Minutes.

• One Half Hour.

• Three Hours

• Four Hours

• Maximum 6 Hours of Single Session.

Meditation Distraction

• Distractions Due To Food.

• Due to Sex

• Due to Egoistic Speech of Running Down Tradition, Guru and Practice.

• Condemning Other People Conduct.

• Lack of Clarity on Purpose.

• Lack of Practice.

Meditation Swings -

• Can Be down Wards Slide like Coming Down From a Mountain – Every Day Meditation Become Worst.

• Can Be Up Ward Like An Eagle Flight – Taking Of Higher And Higher.

• Can Be Like Waves- Every Alternative Session Or Day Is Difficult.

• Climbing Like Mountain – Slow Progress but Steady.

• Volcanic Burst – Spurts U Do Well.

Emotional Level.

• Negative Emotions.

• Then Joy

• Then Deep Silence.

• Gratefulness

• Peacefulness Like A Calm Ocean.

Mental States.

• Unfocused.

• Sleepy

• Focused On Mantra

• Then Partial Visualization of Deity.

 

Intuition States

• Flashes

• Insight of Some One’s Intention.

• Karmic Reason like Why Suffering Arises In Life.

• Action and the Consequences.

• Be In the Flow and Aha Moment.

 

Ego Arising

• Thinking of Other People’s Fault

• Looking At Other Fault

• Discussing Other Fault.

• Not Praying For Other People Difficulties.

• Thinking One Self as Perfect.

• Thinking As One Self as The Greatest In Virtues And Practice.

Difficulties in Meditation

• First Difficulty Is Consistency.

• Second Is Stamina

• Third Is Mastery In Sitting.

• Then Mastery In Moving.

• Keeping The Vow And Niyma- Why It Will Fail

• Forgetfulness.

• Feeling Too Confident Before Completion.

• Boasting to Others.

• Going To Places People And Being In Situation Which Will Break the meditation practice.

• Lack of Repeated Trying.

For Successful meditation.

• Praying To God Every Day For Help.

• Willing to Go Through Pain.

• Feeling Positively Nervous.

• Feeling With Gratefulness For Completion.

• Offering Thanks For Divine.

• Avoiding People Who Trigger It.

• Getting Blessing Of People Who Have Mastered It.

• Getting Blessing Of Guru.

• Not Taking For Granted Till One Finishes.

• Expecting Problems And Obstacles.

• Guarding Niyama Like Eyes.

 

Meditation Will Follow Cycle Of View, Conduct And Practice.

Bhakthi , Karma, Gnana, Yoga Will Also Flow In Any Practise.

Path Can Be Clock Wise And Anti Clockwise.

Rupa, Arupa And Rupa arupa Will Also Follow.

Speech, Mind Emotion Action Intention Will Become Pure In Any Practice

HOW TO RECOVER FROM SLUMP IN SADHANA

There is high and low in stock markets, in sports, in career. This simple truth even holds good for sadhana.   To meditate consistently one require lot of awareness, give up certain preferences. This will help to come out of the high and low of sadhana.

Many people have given up sadhana and have become guru because of their inability to meditate in consistent manner. It is very easy to preach, lecture, write books about sadhana but doing sadhana requires lot of understanding, determination awareness and discipline.

Your capacity to meditate must be in harmony with your appetite. Many a times an enthusiastic beginner wants fast results. So they set high goals and will not be able to do it consistently. For example some one can meditate for two hours, setting goals for four hours only will lead to frustration. Meditation as a capacity needs to be build up slowly.

Expect healing crisis to happen even if one meditates continuously for seven days. The old karmic slush will get cleaned up. This means your habits, character and attitude which had been creating pain to oneself and others will come into the fore and confront you. If you clear that only then it will be easier to flow in to meditation.

Take any meditation goal as a challenge to finish it. Instead of worrying and cursing one self, find ways you can solve the problems. Give up things which do not help you to reach the meditation goals.

* Lower the minimum target and try to reach it consistently. For example make it one mala for ten days instead of making it as 50 malas and feeling       negative when you cannot reach that goal.
* Check for the food. This will tell you a lot on where you are going wrong. For example place. I am sensitive by nature to food.  Eating outside as a           person makes my mind heavy, polluted, pick up arguments and lose my focus on meditation. It took nearly 60 malas and visit to a temple and lighting           lamp to reduce the impact.
* Check for working atmosphere. Some times digestion of the day’s events will take time.
* Check for your conduct and see whom you have hurt or created difficulties etc.  Other person’s thought waves can create disturbances in your astral       body. There fore when you are doing sadhana make sure you do not hurt others.
* Tell people what to expect of you. Make it clear that you will not compromise on your sadhana on any account.

Many people try to define sadhana and the path. It is very good in the initial stages but in the long run these definitions becomes arbitrary and every thing blends and mends. For example advitha or Vedanta is a path. But then they don’t give importance to bhakthi, yoga and karma. Slowly as vedantian progresses, he /she will realize the value of the other path and also will expose themselves. They will also have to check the common points between their path and other paths. For example a bhakthi man will see how doing yoga will help him with his postures and gnana aspect to help him to refine the technique.

Karma yoga men will realizes that doing work for bhakthi intent will be very helpful. Therefore bhakthi, gnana and karma yoga are just the different aspects of the same flower. If gods is one then these path are not cut and well defined but are blended and merged.

god with form or with out form is another big debate or confusion- the sadhaka as he /she progress will come to an understanding that the god in essence is formless. But god in his attributes has several forms. For example the cup is empty inside but the colors, shape and material will vary. Therefore one can choose essence or attributes. If one chooses essence then they will slowly come to the attribute. If someone start their sadhana on the attributes then they will progress towards the essence.

God is one or many- my wife is a Christian and she will see her Christ even in permual temple or shiva temple. For her Christ will come in different forms. So if you are confused on many deities, see your issta devata as a manifestation all deities.

Deity worshipped as inner or outer aspects- the outer aspects like pooja, homam and abhsikeam is done for the inner aspects to be strengthened. For example words can be used as pooja, eating as homam the fire of the jatara agni is the food. The abshisekam is the bath you have. If you see every one as ur issta devata and people coming, meeting and relating with you as your ishta devata. then the devata has come inside you. Sri Ravi Shankar says beautifully that if you do not see the person standing in front of you as the embodiment of divine, then how anyone will see the formless god. First see god in form then u can see in formless.

Teachers- when the ego sublimates, then everyone who come to meet you will carry the message of god. They will become channels in unknowing manner. Start taking a person as your guru is wonderful, but then one needs take the whole world as your guru. Then you will see god sending subtle test, problems and difficulties to expose your limitation and increase the faith. Then the whole world will become the tool that carries the message of god.

dviata ,adviata and vistadviata- these just the three aspects of god, god as other, god as self and god as every thing. One will flow from one bhava to another. These are not vasinavite or hindu philosophy but three aspects of god. Slowly bhoga and dhayna becomes the same-my teacher calls this state as   prayer without ceassing. Bhoga means enjoyment of sensual pleasure and dhyana means controlling the senses. Bhoga is sensual pleasure minus god. Bhoga plus god is gnana i.e.: is sensual pleasure plus god. The chanting becomes so sweet that mouth becomes sweet and this is what all the great musicians experience.

PATTERNS IN SPIRITUAL LIFE

When I read the life of nagamma, it suddenly flashed to me that the enlighten process happens in stages and phases. Most of the nagamma’s biography seems to go through this process.

 

Most of the souls don’t fit in with the society. They are the people who like to speak the truth ,support what is dharma,  cannot take lies and crookedness, easily forgiving, and do not like to take revenge or carrying over enmity.  They don’t know how to crook. So they lose money in business or have failure in work. For example tukaram lost money so many times in business and so is swami ramadas. Normal notion among the people is to become successful first then make lot of money and only finally think of god. The failures, trails and tribulations these souls face in their work make them mover towards god. My teacher told in succinct manner” if god exist then world does not exist. if the world exist then god does not exist. U cannot have success in both “. People who have become guru without meditation normally speak in reverse manner.

 

Secondly human relationships by nature are very painful. Many people have hope and long for perfect relationship. This expectation is also shattered for these souls. Take the case of tukaram, he lost his first wife and child in famine. The great gampopa of kagyu lineage lost his wife in epidemic. The j Krishnamurthy lost his brother whom he loved. Mata amritanandamayi had lot of problems with her family.

 

Next thing is that death stares at them in one way or another. For example when ramana maharishi heard of some one’s death, he started having death like appearance and sensation. Take the case of osho who was told by astrologer that he can die with in 8 years. The great Buddha saw the death when he went out of his palace.

Some will have incurable illness which will get cured only by the intense faith in god. The great appar was cured of his stomach pain by application of vibhuthi by his sister. The great purshotamanda of vasiata guha was cured of his stomach problems in the temples of guruvayur.

Love for god, sadhana, the friendship of holy saints’ starts at a very early age in their life. This like embers of fire was slowly stroked by time. These souls are normally born in places where rishi have meditated or have a sacred temple. When ever these souls put faith on money and people some kind of tragedy happens to them. They feel intense pain. I have seen so many sadhakas and good people who lose money in business, their savings getting wiped out in one go and they are left with nothing. The more they put faith on god; they can see their life comes into order. plus their material needs is taken care by other people. When they hear bhajan they start crying or they have intense desire to see god. Normally relatives and friends hurt them so many times that they long for peace and happiness.

The guru, the path and the method appears for them clearly. They like to pray for a long time or long to pray. For example if you see the life of nagaamma she prays for guru who is like dakshinamoorthy and gets the vision also. Swami ramdas gets his mantra from his father. All this happened for these great souls when they are in the age of 36 – 30. This was the big turning points in their life. The search for guru and path suddenly stoped and the faith started rooting in their life.

WHY TANTRICS USE DRUGS

I have left the path of left hand tantra. I told my teacher that his ways are different from mine. Of course some useful insights for people who want to follow tantra.

The drugs mainly used by tantrics are ganja. Of course they combine it with alcohol mainly rum. Ganja has some advantages. It is easily available, non addictive, stimulate imaginations, cheap in price, concentration becomes sharp, the sensory activity become heightened, reduces the bodily attachment , makes the astral body lose, the pitta increases in the mind, act as non aphrodisiac, apana goes up, breathing slowly down, relaxation happen immediately.

Of course some other drugs can have some other kind of impact. I have never seen any of the drugs like LSD, crack, cocaine, morphine used by tantrics. May be the modern western tantrics use that. Some how these drugs have greater potential for visual imagery but also it is very addictive.

The side effects of the ganja are cough, constipation in some case loss of interest in appetite, over eating( an obese person tend to eat a lot and people who eat less will have increase in that tendency)  loss of weight, hallucination, addiction to visual highness, cut of from daily activity of life, more giving with money and material things. The most important rule is to chant the mantra and visualize the deity. One should allow imagination to run wild and tantric try to control it. Secondly one should talk much but no talking negative of any one. my teacher kirtie use to say that one should master the drugs effects and one should be mastered by drugs. He also mentioned that the naga sadhus would sit in circle and pass on the chillum after chillum.  The one whose concentration does not shake or pass out due to drugs effects is the winner. I think when deity possess any one, the effects of drugs does not have much physical impact.

The Tantrics believed that self-mastery was to be tested amidst family life, the tumult of town and marketplace, the awesome spectacles of a cremation ground, and the dangers of isolated wilderness areas. Normal people will surely die if they take drugs but these people survive due to deity’s grace. The deity possess them due to this the physical impact of the drugs is less/.

For siddhies of the mantra a vamachara tantric is the best bet. So fast one can see the results. For dakshinachara people the 45 seconds one breath inhalation and exhalation can bring in relaxation. They can also do some strong visualization. A 30 minutes chanting combined with deep breathing will produce effects. Of course it can not produce impact like ganja. Secondly lighting lamp in temple and doing homam will be helpful to strengthen the imagination. To my knowledge one should not mix tantra and yoga.

Tantra believes that pressure work the best. Physically process like sex , sleep pain needs to mastered to have mastery of consciousness. Extreme situation, places and people are good for performing any kind of sadhana. Extreme places like cremation ground ,mortuary produces fast results. Actually in crisis people perform better. Initially pleasure component also produces very good results. The tantric works with body process that is why it requires immense mastery. yoga in positive sense. The Vedanta from mind slowly to other areas. The bhakthi from heart and then the other areas.